心语迹痕

May 12, 2007

逃不了,最后谁也都苍老

Filed under: 心田,乐迹 — by Yilise @ 12:35 AM

好久没听93.3了。最近因为不舒服,父亲开车送我去上课,才在车上听了几次。感觉,仿佛回到了初院时代,那是我听93.3的高峰期。

刚刚在来学校的途中,一上车,就听到一首感觉既陌生又有一丝丝熟悉的歌。想了想,是最近好友介绍的一首新歌,演唱乐队队名怪怪的,记不住。老实说,最近听英文歌比中文歌多。再加上,一旦不听93.3,认识的新歌马上直线下降。好难得,播的新歌有我听过的,且记得住的。这一首,好像叫什么“情歌”的,旋律一般,歌词也普通,其实并不怎样。但,我记住,因为其中的一句歌词。

“逃不了,最后谁也都苍老”。

仿佛应了方文山《发如雪》的那一句,“我等待苍老了谁”。

最近的一个月,学校适逢考试期,工作量剧增。偏偏自己又不知死活地安排了许多业余的东西。搞得自己几乎夜夜熬夜改卷。也不知是否是累坏了,身体开始抗议,闹了一次此生最严重的一次胃病。疼得我恨不得把胃撕出来,不要算了。

这段日子,生活忙碌。又病又累。过得辛苦,让自己有些感慨吧。听了这一句词,有些触动。在我们为一些不知所谓的东西坚持着时,岁月已逝。而最后,紧紧握在手中放不开的,究竟是不是我们想要的?

把生活安排得如此密不透风,还不过是想逃?可,人生总是如此。越想逃避,缠得就越紧。最后,只落得一个苍老。这辈子,有谁真的能逃脱?太多时候,再用力跑,也只是原地踏。只怕,逃一生,却发现自己只是在监狱外自设另一个陷阱。

但,身边有许多朋友,让我感觉自己真的是幸福的。就努力活得开心吧。谁说,苍老不是另一番人生体会?

p/s: 在播了这首新歌后,93.3接着播的是古巨基的《喜欢》。是我初院时代最爱的一首歌之一。不知为何,现在听来,感觉甜得令人发疼。真的,年龄不一样,感觉不一样了。仿佛棉花糖,远看粉粉的,香香的诱人,散发着童真。可,买一束咬一口,才发现自己早过了那爱吃这样黏黏甜甜的零食的年龄,倒不如留作一份回忆,云雾梦幻。

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May 1, 2007

little pockets of time…

Filed under: 心痕 — by Yilise @ 1:09 PM

Now Playing : I Miss Me – Brad Cotter

April’s being one of my busiest months yet… wushu competition, three concurrent dance courses, 12 sets of essays to mark for CA2, setting of the mid-year paper, typing of remarks for the mid-year, translation assignment and exam, plays/films/dinners in the weekends and the weekly social dance nights… have hardly any time to sit down for a meal unless it’s a pre-arranged dinner date…

Which is why I appreciate the little pockets of time… one hour or two in between places I have to be and people I have to meet… an hour or two at a café… time to scribble a few thoughts or just to sit and daze… time which belongs to no one but myself… time when I can clear my mind and keep bad thoughts at a bay…

Still, I’m thankful for all in my life… everything that makes me alive… work that fills my days with purpose… the plays and films that fill my soul… friends that goes beyond the word “friend” that makes me feel cherished and blessed… I have angels in my life…

I’m not the same… Just someone else using my name…
I wish you’ll come back… coz I miss me…

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