心语迹痕

March 28, 2006

平凡的歌

Filed under: 乐迹 — by Yilise @ 2:34 AM

最近在教《母亲》这个课题。学校的一个实习老师找来了一首阿牛的歌曲,《妈妈的爱有多少斤》。歌词很浅白,旋律柔和。很久没听这么单纯的一首歌了,没修 饰,没技巧,就是简简单单地将一个母亲和孩子之间自然流露的情感唱出来。好久没听阿牛的歌了,都忘了以前多么喜欢他的歌中的那份通俗的真。

炒一碟菜油要放几滴 煮一顿饭要用多少心
你煮过的饭有多少斤 谁能数得清 答案悄悄地藏在米缸里
妈妈的爱有多少斤 谁能数得清 答案写在她脸上的皱纹里

播这首歌时,班上出奇地安静。平时爱闹爱吵的学生听这首歌时好安静,有些眼眶微红。有些歌,还是通俗些,才能动人。

最近意外地都在听一些较平凡的歌曲。那天学生在做歌词演绎时,呈献了《有用的人》,尽管歌曲难找,他们还是坚持一定要这首歌。看到班上好多人都对 这首歌十分熟悉,在播歌曲时,他们都能跟着唱。当我说这是我第一次听这首歌,同时也没看过《小孩不笨》,他们讶然得有些好笑。但感觉到他们对这部电影的共 鸣。许多人都认为这间学校的学生都是顶尖的,但其实失败与挫折,人人都有。他们也都曾被人骂过:“你真的好笨”。三个月了,最大的收获,应该就是和这一班 多了一些默契,和对他们多了一份了解吧。从开始对他们那份沉默的气和无奈,到现在班上的些微气氛。尽管道路还很久,但我期待。

有些游戏结果不一定要获胜
有些收获不在终点而在过程

March 18, 2006

Holidays — Come and Gone

Filed under: 心痕 — by Yilise @ 11:21 AM

Now Playing: 流水年华 – 庾澄庆

Second last day of the holidays and I have almost the same multitude of work that I had when the holidays started – papers unmarked, comprehensions unset, files unchecked… how did this happen?!?!

Stayed at home the whole day today in an effort to finish the comprehensions at least… but the results are dismal (only finished one with 3 left to go). Ugh, am missing the salsa fiesta for the darn comprehensions, I’ll finish them tonight if it’s the last thing I have to do to make it worthwhile.

Other things that made the holidays worthwhile (noted in point form to save time):
— got a haircut and my very first pedicure that I’m pleased with *admires pretty toes*,
— did a day out with mom (spa, shopping, food, movie)
— ate two filling meals (a delicious salmon steak done rare and chili crabs), courtesy of dad in celebration of birthdays
— spent a day at Borders, simply relaxing with a book

Not bad for a week of holidays, considering that 3 days were spent in school for trainings and seminars… still longing for June thou…

On another note, many thanks to all for the well-wishes on the day I turned quarter of a century old (^_^) Its happy to know that one is in so many people’s thoughts…

Crash

Filed under: 戏痕 — by Yilise @ 11:20 AM

Just watched “Crash” , bought the second last two tickets that sat us right at the front row and now I have a permanent crick in my neck. But its’ worth it. It may not be better than Brokeback, but it had a message that speaks of truth.

Is it sad that I recognize parts of myself up there on the screen? The ignorance and the indifference to the ignorance I have towards those not of my race simply because I have no interaction with them and they play no part in my life. Self-centered but that’s me.

There is no black and white and somehow knowing that there are no heroes to worship and model after and no villains to slay makes us even more vulnerable and insecure.

The school’s been focusing on racial harmony recently and talks about closing the gap between the races. I would suggest playing the film to the students and teachers but I don’t think it will help, and not just because I doubt the students’ ability to understand the film.

Everyone is a bigot in some way or other and it isn’t anything that will be likely to solve itself with force-feeding lectures and speeches and attempted brainwashing.

It’s not just stereotyping. It’s the inability to understand each other. It’s the isolation of oneself and the slow subconscious thoughts that seeps into you. It’s knowing that we are all different and fear of that difference.

There’s hope in the film. Although there are parts of us that are too ugly to be seen, there’s also goodness that we don’t see. We are capable of vicious acts but also capable of heroic acts beyond belief.

And perhaps, the truth of that is good enough.

March 7, 2006

Second MC of the year

Filed under: 心痕 — by Yilise @ 5:45 AM

Second MC of the year and its still due to sore throat… the doctor was asking me what the hell did I do to my throat again when he saw me…haiz. Like I want to have sore throat like that…

Can’t wait for this week to be over… I think I’m more like a student than a teacher when it comes to anticipating holidays! Even holidays that are filled with work like the upcoming March holidays with translation and wushu training sessions and staff seminars and comprehension exercises and papers to mark. But I scheduled two spa days for me and Mom in celebrations of our birthdays. Also going to get a hair-cut and there’s a Salsa Fiesta on Saturday. Even more looking forward to the June Hols when P is going to come back so that we can go somewhere together. Debating between Thailand or Taiwan now with a extra short trip to KL?

Still, I really enjoy these MC days, all by myself in the house and the peace and quiet makes it easy to mark my papers… the papers and hours seem to fly by. Soreness of throat is pain but since I don’t talk to myself anyway it’s almost ignorable.

1st term is almost over, and I’m starting to get the part where I know all my students by name which makes it a lot easier…. The kids make everything worth it even when they are little devils out to get your last shred of sanity, so getting to know them is so important…

At the end of the term, one is supposed to take stock of one’s work life… but my thoughts seem to be running everywhere…

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